1st day

Annyeong...

FYI i just quit my job as kindergarten teacher bout 2 days ago. So basically i'm a jobless person for a while b4 joining my other siblings at PHAAM @ Panasonic HA Industries at Shah Alam... I think u can easily guess the reason why i take such decision to quit my last job. I rather have a busy job than less things to do if it just gave me a headache..so better quit b4 it's too late..natsukashii na..it kinda feel awkward to be here again after 6 years..maybe every1 wonder why some1 like me,with degree,kind of intelligent person choose this work,right? Hahha i actually have this eager and curiousity of how would i think again if i have chance to experience the same thing twice..

Hala tuju hidupku

Up until now....i used to have a dream being a teacher-give full commitment in educating next generation towards the better future. From admiration of my kindergarten teacher, i pull all my courage to keep this dream along my life till i met new rival NOVELS.

Novelist- became my second dream in line to the teacher. Maybe i still can educate people through my writing. What kind of writing? Anything...from woman perspectives to the health, culinary, sports, landscape etc...

Through my university days... i met DRAMA either T@J@K Drama. it kind of building up something new in my life. I keep wondering what will happen if i do master in language- especially foreign language except for English. I try to get close to Nihon go and Hanguk e, and surprisingly, i get to know Mandarin. At my final year, i was introduce to France language and get to know several new friends which remain till today. it's wonderful to know other culture and the uniqueness of the language. the same meaning but different spelling and pronunciation. i think i fall in love with the sensation of involving in new environment faster than adapting in social community...why won't i? So, in conclusion... i wish to go out and work in something related to embassy..like being ambassador or something.

dream is a dream.. it won't come true unless we put some effort to it right?

Right now...i'm working as a kindergarten teacher but i believe i don't have the teaching credential and not quite qualified to hold this position. why not? because of my temperament... i'm the one easily got angry even it's with kids... so, i just have to stare at them as a warning and they will shut their mouth eventually..maybe they got scared of me. who knows???

even so, i still hold the intent to take my second degree...it's not like i failed my first degree, and i'm proud with my first degree in Usuluddin and Comparative Religion from IIUM. However, i want to take the second degree and focus of mastering the Japanese language- especially till i can write and read the Hragana, Katakana and Kanji especially... many people do said Kanji is kind of hard to learn but i think i'll do anything to understand and master it.

my convocation on Oct 10, 2011 ~

yunn, sakinah, jannah, waida, me, nuyah and khairina.

but right now, i have another priority...save up enough money so that my family can move from the current home to new location. for a change of air, fresh air...than we can start anew...might be  better for all. 


i'll resign from my current occupation after this month on Nov...it's not that i come to hate this job, actually it's quite amusing for me with no teaching experience and credentials to stay for almost a year...but i need to move on. i want to find another experience working in different places. 

an old saying sounds like; 

"jauh berjalan, luas pemandangan."

whatever the work will be, it's better than be in the front line with the pretender and people with multiple layer of facade...i come to hate it most because it put me in the wrong situation. Well, i come to realize...if i was hated because stand front for my principle, it's not gonna effect me even a bit...in fact, i might not have a time even a bit to think about it.

have you ever experience this kind of situation?

Meeting several man and get dump or dump the guy coz you know he's not the one. then, lost the interest to find the destiny one...choose to stay alone and waiting for the right prince to come for a rescue...

kind of like fairytail huh....like Repunzel. rather than find the way out, she stay put on the tower till the prince come by...sometimes i feel that she already waste her life just for waiting.... Anyway, i think it's normal for any girl to have at least this kind of fantasy dream...me too.

back to the main point, i guess i still can't give hope for what i want in life... even it's late, i still want to learn Nihon go...i want to master it. even it's impossible in the current situation but it will be possible if i keep trying slowly by myself. most successful people start all by themselves not by depending on other people. it wouldn't hurt trying... as a matter of fact, i wanna be a worth sister for my siblings...some1 they can feel proud to be with them...InsyaALLAH.

never stop trying~~~~~conclusion; 

HItori Jyanai..

For all...i mean almost all, should i use the words everyone? Hmm it could be proper to say everyone...Everyone in this world must have dream to have a companion, like a soul mate...which is compatible for the rest of their life. the meaning compatible used to be understand equal in many aspect such as level of education, the level of property..people used to and still think highly of those with money...some also take in consideration about outer appearance. Well it's something common to look after some1 good-looking either man or woman. But sometimes we encounter people who never care bout look, just fall in love with the charm of kindness... however, it's rarely do happen. Well, still...it do happen. Some people fall in love at the first sight...for me it kind of magical thing. Coz i don't have that experience ever in my life. Just puppy love. Unfortunately, he now become a husband to somebody else and i doesn't fell any disappointment or frustration. I just hope in the future, i'll experience it. But if it doesn't lead to a long term relationship, why bother...

Well, I think it just normal for someone heartbroken to wish never fall in love again but what can we do...we just can make a plan but the one carried out the duty to make it happen or not was SOMEONE so POWERFUL...in fact we don't have any capability to defy it...who else...that's our ALMIGHTY ALLAH. 

As for me, i used to think the same... I have experience so many hardship and suffering till i feel that it useless to think that way...but right now, i just believe in HIS blessing and planning. It impossible for HIM to give hardship we never ever have capability to handle because HE's fair to all HIS creature. 

Once, i watch the drama...Japanese Drama. It's all about life and the lead character repeatedly said the same phrase...omae wa hitori jyanai~you're not alone~...And then, i really believe that everyone was created with compatible spouse to complete what was lacking in any ways. 

When i became addicted to Korean Song and Drama, i meet Lee Seung Gi with his song titled 'Will You Marry Me'... i thought, how nice would it be to have someone completely fall in love with me, like over the heels and confess to me. If this kind of situation happened to me, i think i might say YES at that moment without thinking.

This is the English sub of the song; sweet...

Will you marry me

Will you live forever with me

Whilst loving each other

I want to have a child that looks like me,

another one that looks like you,

And live unhurt, for 1000,or 10000 years

To be honest with you

I like you more than you like me

And people say

that's better between man and woman

c/o;

i'll love you more

i'll take care of you

if you cry

if you're having a hard time

if you're hurt, i'll hurt with you

i'll love you forever

i'll protect you forever

i'm thankful that i've met someone like you

i want to love only you everyday

will you marry me

RAP;

Marry me,

there's a feeling of happiness everyday

and i look forward to tomorrow with you

why am i nervous?

you are the best,

no matter how much i look at you

until our black hair becomes white

until our lives end

even if i put waters in your hand

i won't put tears in your eyes

you as my half, i as your half

i'll love you as long as i breathe

When time goes by and we get wrinkles

You and I will be together like now

repeat c/o;

RAP;

You're like the light which lightened up my dark life

the sound of soup boiling that greet me

the rain that falls on my thirsty heart

the poem that contains the meaning of love

the string of destiny that the heaven have allowed

the meeting between you and i was meant to be

you'll be irreplaceable even if i was given the whole world

you'll be the only person in my heart forever

repeat c/o;

So, did you listen to it?? How come anyone refuse a proposal of life if its so sweet like that....the song contain deep meaning of having love someone and being in love with someone. Just to make sure the precious one is smiling, one would do anything...so sweeeet...!!!!!Even though it might be impossible, i think having a dream to have someone confess to me like that wouldn't cause any harm...right?


If it happened to you, i wish you the best and congratulations. Once you found the love of your heart, grab hold onto it despite the obstacle because true love are hard to come by. if it does come, appreciate it with grateful because once you deny it from your heart, you'll be in despair but don't ever stray from the right path, ALLAH's love just because of love to another human being.


In fact, love not only about happiness but the willingness from one heart to accept what lacking. not everyone is perfect but once you fill the the spot, it'll become perfect.


that's my truly opinion. what bout you???

All in 1

Waaaa....Ambe confuse....! Banyak sangat keluaran smartphone yang baru...xtau mana satu yang nak di pilih...waaaa Tasukete kure...


Sekarang Ambe gune Sony Ericson J20i hazel....dgn Nokia 5330....Tapikan macam orang lain, Ambe teringin sangat nak pakai Samsung Galaxy...xkisahlah Samsung Galaxy Tab ke, Samsung Galaxy Note ke...hape ke...yang penting function dia all in 1... asalkan Ambe dapat treat macam laptop- penuh dengan fuction microsof..tp ade ke yg mcm tu? Almaklumlah, Ambe ni jenis yang cetek pemikiran sikit dalam benda2 canggih cm gini...


Pape pun, Ambe akan cuba jugak dapatkan either Samsung Galaxy Tab or HTC or I Phone...Tapi kan ramai yang cakap I Phone ni x best sangat...aii! Macam mana ni?? HTC lak mahal giler...hampir2 RM 1500 and above..Tapi kan semalam abang ipar Ambe ade cakap yang Samsung Galaxy Tab dah boleh dimiliki dengan harga RM1200 je... Unbelievable...Harga dh turun...Of course Ambe happy sakan...tp tgu dlulah...tgu gj bulan ni hehehe pasni boleh lah decide which one the most suitable one with me...i hope i can make wise dicision over this matter coz i wanna use it for a long time...especially for the internet purpose. at least i don't have to drag along a netbook whereverr i go...i doesn't feel quiet right using Sony Ericson to surf internet coz it limited.... i  guess i have to ask someone over the sea bout it....

Wayang oh wayang

Hari ning, Ambe gi tengok wayang...rindu gamoknye....lagipung Ambe dok tahu nok wak gape. Nok bace buku, buku Ambe hok banyok2 tu Ambe ator doh umoh kakok Ambe. boring sangat. Internet? Malah anagt wase nok bukok laptop...handphone? Malah nok cah...Lagipong Ambe nok gi beli cd hehehe...Sekarang ning, Ambe nok cube2 usaha kupul belake citer2 terutame sekali drama Korea dengang Jepong. Bukang gape, Ambe nok wak collection. Manelah tahu, suatu mase ekgi buleh sipang dalang library peribadi Ambe.

Hari ning Ambe pilih tengok citer Tower Heist. Napok macang best je. Tamboh2 lagi Eddie Murphy belakon. Wase nok tengok pulok. Haritu tengok iklang je. ni gambor poster Tower Heist; 

Gandingan mantap pelakon yang menghidupkan jalan cerita.

Tunjang utama Tower Heist.

Komen ; 

Bagi Ambe lah, citer ni best....kelakor giler...awal2 lagi Ambe tergelok. Tapi jangang nok complaint lok...bukang ape, citerase setiak orang tu dok same jadi jangang duk saloh ke sape2 lah...jangang lok kate Ambe ni dok pandai nok nilai cerite...doh Ambe suke citer gini, nok wak gane...kalu dok setuju, dok soh tengok citer ni....Ambe poong nok kongsi dengang orang hok suke je...kalu dok suke, jangang  bace...

Haritu...dok silap Ambe bulan 10, Ambe ade tengok citer The Sorcerer and the White Snake. nok tahu bakpe Ambe ye ye nok tengok? sebab Jet Li belakon hehehe... ni gambo ye...cool;

Gandingan mantap Jet Li sebagai seorang sami yang membanteras kejahatan dari makhluk2 ghaib. Meskipun The White Snake ni asalnya sangat baik tetapi seperti yang kita ketahui dalam islam, hubungan antara manusia dan makhluk alam ghaib adalah di larang sama sekali. Cinta bukan hanya memberi bahagia tetapi turut mengundang derita. Namun begitu, cinta sejati tidak mengenal semua itu. terpulang pada tafsiraan peribadi masing2.

Akan mempertahankan prinsip yang makhluk ghaib hanya akan memberi derita kepada manusia. tetapi sampai bilakah dia akan berpegang teguh apabila bertemu dengan kekuatan cinta White Snake. Kadang2 tu, kita akan mula merubah prinsip apabila menyedari sesuatu...tidak semua makhluk ghaib itu bersifat mengancam.

The White Snake yang begitu tegas dan teguh memppertahankan cinta suci sehingga sanggup melakukan apa sahaja asal dapat bersama dengan insan tercinta. 

2hb 11 baru ni, Ambe tengok cite lakonang Justine Timberlake dalam IN TIME. Best...penuh aksi, debaran..wat kejut sokmo bila duk pk nak sapa hujung nyawe... ni gambor ye;

Impian

Lama sangat doh wase dok nulih dalang bahase ganung...rindu lak wase..kali ning Ambe amik kesempatang ah nok tra2 nulih dalang bahase hok Ambe duk bangge lame nih. Kalu tnye sape2 pong,mesti sume orang kate bangge dengang identiti dan susur galur masing2. Ambe pong gitu gok. Xmboh vi bangga bakpe, Ambe ni kacukan Malaysia Indonesia. Ayoh Awbe Jawa pure. Mungkin sebab tu kot adik-beradik Ambe suka benor dengang bahase asing nih...sapa2 adik Ambe hak ke4 pah ke perancis gare2 blajo.x ke wujud perasaang bangge kalu kejayaang hak mucul? Bukang setakat sedara2 je hak tumpang rase gembira tapi kenalang2 lain pong same. kadang2 tu kang, kenalang tu lebih hargai kite dari sedare sdiri. Sapa ade gok hok tegamok hati wak cite nok buruk2 ke kite. Memang kurang ajor lh. Sebab tu sapa sekarang, Ambe dok caye ke sdare Ambe terutame sekali hok duk sekapung dengang Ambe. Cukuplah Ambe sekeluaga makang hati berulang jantung. Biarlah x dok sedare pong dari ada wak nyusoh ke kite je. Dok penoh ikhlas dengang kite... Bagi Ambe, orang peseng gini dok leh sipang dekak, lame2 bulih wak kite sakit jiwe. Ambe xmboh sakit jiwe mude2 gini. Baik Ambe wak bende lain. Banyok lagi bende laing bulih vi pekdoh. Cari pitih ke hehe..kupul pitis wak kahwin lagi molek..setuju ke dok?

Hoo..benornye Ambe nok cakap pasal impiang..kalu dok silap,masa Ambe mule2 kenal sekoloh, Ambe nok jadi cikgu bila besar. Nok tahu bakpe?sebab cikgu hok ngajo ambe mase tadika dulu baik kemain.. Jadi, suke punye pasal...Ambe pong pasang niat nak jadi pe cikgu Ambe hak bername Cikgu Hayati. Sapa lening Ambe ingat agi ke cikgu tu...Baik sangat, dok penoh maroh, senyum je walaupung ade hok wak nyakit ati...

Mase Ambe mula masuk darjah 4, Ambe jadi addicted dengang library...mase tu dok soh kate lah, pantahng ade mase sikit, angkat kaki lalu gi puataka...Nak tahu bakpe? Hehehe...Ambe jatuh cinta dengang buku penyiasatan remaja Enid Blyton, Nancy, adik beradik Hadi...hmm Ambe dok berapa ingat sangat doh...lame sangat doh dekpong...ingat2 lupe doh...Ambe ada la jugok pasang niat nak jadi penulih tapi mase tu sekadar angan2 jer...dok lebih dok kurang sikit pong.

Naik je tingkatan 1, Ambe pon berkenalan dengang hobi bace novel. Almaklumlah, mase tu jupe ramai kawang2 baru. Maka bermulelah episod Ambe jadi gila bace novel. Macang2 buku Ambe bace. Mule2 bace novel Melayu terutame sekali citer keluaran Alaf 21. aloh ramai sangat hok bace novel Alaf 21 ni...tatoeba; Ombak Rindu, Bicara Hati etc... banyok sangat nok sebut..ekgi dok cukup ruaqng kalu tulih belake. Pahtu, Ambe blajor bace buku novel Inggeris pulok...dok seke gok buleh minat giler2 dengang novel sapa2 nok jadi novelist bile besor ekgi. tapi tu ah, orang kate...cite2 dgn angang2 ni dok same...

masuk je u...u tu universiti ah...kawang2 Ambe perkenal pulok drama2 Korea dengang Jepong...tahu2 jelah. bukang Ambe sorang hok duk giler dengan trend Korea. sape2 hok masuk u ke, kolej ke...sumer mesti tahu. Sekarang ni pong, budok2 sekoloh nengah pong duk giler artis Korea.. tatoeba; FT Island, SS501, CN Blue, Big Bang, 2PM, 2AM, MBLAQ, SHINEE, Co-Ed, Teen Top, JYJ, DBSK, Trax, U KISS, Beast, Fly to the Sky, Shinhwa, SM the BAllad, Super Junior, Kim Jong Kook, Lee Seung Gi, Supernova, ZE-A, etc...tu baru hok laki...dok masuk hok puan lagi...2NE1, Wonder Girls, SNSD, After School, Miss A, f(x), 4 Minutes, G.NA, IU, KARA, Lee Hyori, Orange Caramel, T-ARA etc....

Mase ni, Ambe jadi berminat sangat nok belajor bahase asing. Mase tu memang ade terasa doh sikit2 sebab adik Ambe no 4 masuk SBP, pahtu belajor bahase Perancis...Ambe pon tak mboh kaloh. suke lok wase dengor orang Korea cakap... Jadi Ambe belajor bahase Korea sampai level 2, Mandarain level 1, ngelah kali Ambe belajor bahase Perancis. Sekarang ni Ambe bulih cakap dengang bangge Ambe faham jugok kalu dengor orang cakap. dok bute benor lah....kalu sesat tepat orang, confirm bulih hidup...InsyaAllah. Cume se je hok Ambe kesal sapa lening...Ambe dok dan nok belajor bahase Jepun. Sebenarnye bukang dok danng tapi setiap kali Ambe nok belajor, ade2 je halangang...ngelah kali, Ambe give up n amik Korea level 2...Ape2 pong, ilmu gok...paling2 Ambe bulih tra2 blajor sediri...

Sapa sekarang, Ambe suke baca novel, suke tengok drama Korea Jepun... ni drama hok mane Ambe beli doh cd ye;

BLOODY MONDAY 1 & 2

ATASHINCHI NO DANSHI

MEI-CHAN NO SHITSUJI

HAMMER SESSION

NODAME CANTABILE 

Noda Megumi to Shinichi Chiaki

TOKUJO KABACHI

MR. BRAIN

BOSS

BUZZER BEAT

LIAR GAME

 LIAR GAME 1

LIAR GAME 2

LIAR GAME : FINAL STAGE

LIAR GAME FINAL STAGE DVD COVER PICTURE

LIfe must go on...

Setelah bercuti selama dua hari, maka Ambe kembali ke alam pekerjaan...takdelah teruk sangat. Kalau cuti lama2 pon buat sakit badan je. So, better cepat2 kembali bekerja. lagipun, Ambe dh mula rindu dengan bebudak kecik tu...Agak2 diiorang rindu Ambe x???

Teringat lak tentang semalam waktu nek KTM nak balik sini...sini tu tak lain tak bukan, Cheras lah. Ambe naek tren dengan perasaan awkward sesangat. Bayangkan, Ambe nek bawak sejambak bunga, dengan sebuah beg balik kampung. semua orang pandang semacam je. Kalau yang tahu tu, tahulah. Kalau yang tak tahu tu, nak buat camne. sudahnye, buat dekkk je. Malas lah nak buang2 ruang dalam otak nak fikir benda remeh cmtu.

Tapi kan, ada satu mak cik tu, baik sangat. Kami duduk bersebelahan. Banyak gak lah yang kami borakkan termasuklah ucapan tahniah diatas konvokesyen. Hehehe dia tau disebabkan oleh bunga mawar yang Ambe bawak. Berbunga2 hati Ambe menerima ucapah tahniah tu...Yelah, bukan selalu kita berpeluang jumpa orang yang sudi berkongsi rasa gembira. Tambahan lak orang yang kita tak kenal... yogatta na..~

Mak cik to otw nak ke Jln TAR. So, basically kami akan turun di stesen yang sama, Bank Negara. Katanya, nak ke Nagoya untuk dapatkan kain bagi anak saudaranya untuk dijadikan sebahagian dari persiapan kahwain yang akan diadakan tahun depan. Sekarang baru bulan 10 tahun 2011. Masih lama lagi sebelum 2012. Tapi bila bercakap tentang majlis kahwin, better prepare awal2. Senang...

Ambe suka dengan mak cik tu. tau kenapa? Hehehe dia tolong bawakkan barang2 Ambe, dua beg kertas sampailah ke stesen Bandaraya. Alhamdulillah, rezeki Ambe dapat jumpa insan sebaik mak cik ni. Harap2 Ambe akan tetap berpeluang untuk jumpa mak cik ni lagi di lain hari. Menggunakan LRT Star sangat menjimatkan waktu. Hanya dalam tempoh 10 minit, Ambe dah sampai ke stesen Maluri. Dari Maluri, Ambe memilih untuk menaiki teksi untuk balik ke rumah. Lebih senang disebabkan barang2 Ambe boleh tahan banyaknya. Sakit gak tangan dibuatnya. 

Convocation @ Konvokesyen....

Sempena majlis konvokesyen yang akan diadakan kali ke-27,Ambe merupakan salah seorang graduan yang akan menerima scroll...happy sesangat. So, nervous bukan main menanti hari yang semakin menjelang tiba. Majlis yang berjalan sepanjang tiga hari, dalam lima sesi...dan Ambe dijadualkan untuk hari ketiga. Bachelor of IRKHS and Education telah dijadualkan pada hari terakhir, iaitu pada hari isnin 10/10/2011. Hari bekerja dan harapnya takkan berlaku kesesakan dalam UIA sebab sewaktu Ambe datang untuk tumpang squating kat bilik junior on Sunday, jalan sesak giler. Kalaulah Ambe berdegil nak naik bas, jawabnya sampai ke malam memang tetap tak dapat masuk UIA. Nasib baik gaklah terfikir nak naik teksi.

Waktu nak makan malam, terserempak dengan Diana dengan ayah dan adik2 dia. Emak dia tak kelihatan lak. Maybe boleh jumpa pada hari esok...Malam tu, tak leh nak tido. Asyik terfikirkan pasal konvo je. Last2 Ambe berjaga sambil tengok drama Korea bertajuk Lie To Me. Sekali dengar tajuk, macam cerita bersiri orang putih tapi berbeza. youu know how Korean storyline goes on...Interesting and refreshing. Nooomu chua...!!!!

Ambe terjaga pukul enam pagi. terasa mata bengkak sebab tak cuukup tido. Yelah, Ambe cuma dapat lelap bila jarum jam hampir tunjuk pukul 3 pagi. Kalah orang nak kahwin kot...hehehe tapi feeling tu memang dah ada sebab Ambe pernah tolong kawan2 Ambe yang konvo tahun lepas... Nak tengok gambar2 yang Ambe ambik waktu tahun lepas??? hehehe meh Ambe tunjuk sikit....

Haaa...lawa tak??? muuka macam budak lagi waktu tu...sekarang dh lain...maybe sebab selalu stress pasal kerja huhuhuhu...

Seronok sangat sebab dapat jumpa balik semua orang. Paling seronok bila dapat jumpa Jannah dan Zahidah. Jannah dh kerja kat S'pore, sementara Zahidah lak dapat sambung belajar kat UM. Dia amik master dalam bidang usuluddin. jelesnye...Ambe nak sambung jugak tapi.....banyak sebab yang menghalang Ambe dari meneruskan niat Ambe. Anyway, next time masih ada...InsyaAllah Ambe akan sambung jugak walaupun lambat sikit dari orang lain.

Ini lak gambar2 Ambe sebelum masuk dewan CAC;

Patut ke....????!!!!!

Hari ni sepatutnya cuti...dan Ambe tak prepare pape pon utk bebudak...So, Ambe decide untuk kuar and dapatkan macam2 benda for my convocation day next week...but then, Ambe dapat tau yang orang yang bertanggungjawab untuk kerja mengasuh bebudak taska tak dapat datang. SHOCK!!! Masalahnya, kalau Ambe amik keputusan ganti tempat orang tu untuk sehari, Ammbe cam tak kisahlah. asalkan berbaloi. You now what i mean. Sampai bila kita nak ikhlas tolong orang kalau orang langsung tak nak tolong kita. So, tak salah rasanya nak berkira sikit. Sekurang-kurangnya terhapus cuti Ambe yang terlalu berharga. Bukan main lagi Ambe plan mcm mn nak spend cuti yang sehari ni...tgk wayang pon best gak. dah lama sangat tak jejak panggung wayang. Rinduuu....

Berbalik kepada cerita asal. Ambe ni bukan ape...xde niat pon nak memburukkan mana2 pihak. Apa yang Ambe tulis kat sini semua dari pengalaman Ambe sendiri. Pernah x korang bertemu dengan orang especially majikan yang cukup berkira dalam erti kata kedekut??? Ish! Ambe mmg x tahan kalau jumpe dgn orang macam ni. Bukan apa, rasa x adil lak, bukan sikit, berbilion2 gitu. Kalau dah tau xleh jadi majikan yang boleh berlaku adil, mementingkan kebajikan pekerja, janganlah amik pekerja. Ambe ni dah lama bersabar, tahan je...Nampak gayanya, Ambe kena kuar jugak dari sini. Cari kerja kat tempat lain. Kerja kat sini demand sangatlah. Kalau gaji besar, mencecah seribu xpelah. Ini gajinye secuit je...Tak hapus lelah. Buat hati lagi sakit ma....

Ini bukan kali pertama Ambe bekerja. Dulu, Ambe pernah gak kerja, walopon kerja kilang je...yang penting halal. Boleh bagi emak kat kampung, bagi belanja adik2. Gaji lagi mahal dari kat tempat kerja sekarang. Bukan membandingg cuma....menyatakan rasa tak puas hati je...

Sahabatku....

Sepanjang berada di IIUM, tak terkira rasanya teman-teman yang Ambe ada. Antara yang paling Ambe sayang termasuklah Ayesha, Asyikin, Nabilah, Faradilla, Diana, Azwa, Fifah dan dua teman baik dari negara Singapura, Jannah dan Zahidah juga bebrapa orang lagi yang tak tersebut di mulut tetapi tetap mendapat tempat tertinggi dalam hati Ambe. Masing-masing memiiliki character sendiri yang cukup menarik bagi Ambe. dan Ambe selalu memikirkan yang mereka teman yang sangat baik. sentiasa ada bila susah dan senang tanpa mengira tempoh waktu bersahabat. Sekarang, masing-masing memiliki kehidupan sendiri, pekerjaan sendiri mengikut pilihan sendiri. 

Kini merupakan satu tempoh yang cukup lama setelah kami mula mencipta langkah sendiri. kalau nak tahu perkembangan masing-masing, bukak je FB. Kadang-kadang rasa tak cukup jugak. Dihati teringin sangat nak bersua muka. Berkongsi pengalaman dansuka duka sejak mula berdikari.

Ayesha sekarang merupakan seorang guru di sebuah sekolah swasta di KL. I'm happy for her. Asyikin dan Fifah masing-masing sudah bertunang. insyaAllah dalam tahun depan mereka akan memiliki keluarga sendiri. Alhamdulillah. Jalan mereka dimudahkan.Anbilah merupakan seorang guru, begitu juga dengan Azwa. masing-masing memiliki sekumpulan anak2 yang mendambakan ilmu yang dimiliki untuk dikongsi bersama. Pasal Fara lak, Ambe tak pasti sangat. Tapi Ambe yakin, dia antara yang paling berjaya antara kami ramai2 ni. Jannah dan Zahidah lak jauh diseberang sana. Entah bila agaknya Ambe dapat menjejakkan kaki ke negeri singa tu. Hajat tu ada tetapi sukar dilaksanakan dek macam2 hal yang datang. sudahnya, Ambe simpan keinginan itu kemas2 dalam hati. InsyaAllah suatu hari nanti Ambe dapat gak ke sana. Denagr cerita Jannah kerja kontrak dalam bahagian admin dari isnin sampai jumaat. Hujung minggu lak kerja sebagai pembantu technician. 2 jobs at once. baguslah kalau nak cari duit. kalau dekat tempat Ambe duduk ni, macam mustahil je. Ambe ada gak teringin nak cari parrt time job tapi bila memikirkan pengangkutan, terus tak jadi. BIarlah dulu.

Sekarang Ambe bekerja bersama dengan Diana. Berkongsi suka duka bersama. Ambe seronok sangat berkawan dengan Diana sebab dia ni seorang yang baik hati. Alhamdulillah Ambe ditemukan dengan orang yang sangat baik untuk dijadikan sahabat, teman dan kawan sepanjang bernafas di muka bumi milikNya ini.

Berjimat ke Berkira?

Ambe rasa ni bukan perkara baru dalam perjalanan harian dalam hidup kita. Ambe percaya,sedar atau tidak,kita berdepan dengan situasi yang membabitkan dua sikap di atas..Dalam sesetengah situasi, perkataan berjimat diaplikasikan. Kalau kena dengan cara dan keadaan,kita akan terima tanpa banyak bantahan. Kadang-kadang,bila kita sudah maklum dengan personaliti seseorang,we tend to decline and deny the excuse..

Ambe bercakap dari pengalaman Ambe sendiri. Pada usia 24 tahun Ambe tamat pengajian dan bergelar graduan universiti, dan Ambe bangga menggalas gelaran itu dipundak meskipun tidak secemerlang orang lain. Setidaknya Ambe pernah mencuba sedaya upaya Ambe. Pada usia menjangkau 25 tahun, Ambe mulakan dunia dewasa dengan melangkah ke alam pekerjaan. Di hati tersirat rasa takut dengan cabaran dan dugaan yang bakal muncul di sepanjang jalan yang terbentang di hadapan mata. Bukan Ambe tak pernah bekerja tetapi perasaan itu tidak sama. Dengan gelaran graduan, Ambe menggalas tugas dan tanggungjawab terhadap adik-adik Ambe yang masih berada di alam persekolahan. Lagi pula, dah terlalu lama rasanya Ambe bergantung harap pada parents Ambe. Sekaranglah masanya Ambe mulakan langkah pertama.

To be continued..

Suasana baru...

Hari ni merupakan Hari Malaysia. Suatu hari yang mengingatkn kita pada sejarah silam,asal usul kewujudan sebuah negara berdaulat yang kini masyhur dimata dunia. Ambe memang akui ketrampilan negara kita hari ini,dan Ambe betul-betul bersyukur dengan kurniaan ini..Alhamdulillah..
Sebenarnya Ambe bukan nak bercakap pasal hal ni tetapi sebagai menghormati ketibaan hari ni,Ambe nak jugak sebut. Hari ni Ambe dan anak2 murid Ambe akan bertolak ke Kuala Kangsar kerana terlibat dalam satu aktiviti peringkat kebangsaan mewakili Wilayah Persekutuan. Program ini dinamakan Alam Ria.

To be continued...

Kami....

As starter, just a little brief about situation at home. Nothing change. Just visiting to some relatives but i choose to stay at home. Kind of weight head to head out. Staying low at home might be the best. In fact, i'm not in my best condition. As usual, i can't part from my netbook even for listening to some korean song...kind of relaxing and refreshing.

Almost at noon, my elder sister went out to our closest relative, close in term of relationship and kindness. And we, the one staying at home just lay around while we decide to have a roasted chicken for lunch. Might be very tasty after such a long time together. Dad still not home after going out for some cleaning over the growth bushes around the rubber estate.

Did you agree with me if I say that everyone feel proud of their family???So do I. Even each of them was ordinary, but i seems so extraordinary, sparkling with their own ability and specialty. Whenever I was in pinch, just remembering their smile could put me at ease. Just hearing their voice could make me jump in happiness. Just by seeing them could make me sleep soundly at night.

You know, I'm one of those maniac with Nihon to Hanguk drama. In one of drama titled Mei-chan no Shitsuji, I recalled a line saying this "Being ordinary is the best. Thinking of important person, thanking them, believing in each other and supporting in each other. To work hard for those things is ordinary and yet so precious. I should properly do these ordinary and obvious things."

or something like that...

I just fall in love with that line and see so much truth from it. Don't you think so? I think many will agree than disagree with me. We, even we doesn't actually know of other people, we conscious or not will try to do something to help people. So, think again. If we try to help strange people, what will we do for the sake of important person? I think it'll be double right? As long as we can see their bright smile. From my opinion, I definitely agree with the line. And you know, I learn so much just from watching those story. And i think those story only exist because someone have already going through that sort of situation either the same or different. we can just create something form imagination but based on something which already there.

Ops!! I think I might just recall something from my University's period...kekeke~ But it something i'm grateful for. There's so many people that i have felt grateful for...people who was the inspiration to be the source of who am i today, lead me to where i'm standing today, and create the bright me today.....

Aidilfitri

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI,

 MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN.

Tahun 2011 merupakan tahun pertama yang paling ku harapkan kedatangan lebaran kerana ia bagitu bermakna bagi semua orang, terutama sekali bagi my parents sebab Daman will be here with us. so, lebaran tahun ni paling bermakna. Lepas ni entah bila lagi dia akan balik...entah bila lagi kami akan dapat berkumpul semua. Maybe dalam 2 atau 3 tahun lagi...InsyaAllah.

Seawal pagi, semua oarng bangun dengan semangat, dengan niat nak pergi sembahyang raya sama-sama. yang paling teruja sekali adalah anak saudara Ambe, Syuhada. She's sweet especially when she's happy but once she start her 'attitude' she seems the worse. i mean from kids perspective. Not worse like bad but make me feel irritating and annoying little kid.

Ni gambar kami on the way nak ke Masjid. Jalan kaki je...kampung lah kata kan...ambik feeling sikit...bukan senang nak dapat pengalaman ni..

Kat masjid, jumpa ramai oarng kampung. Of course semua muka yang pernah Ambe nampak dan Ambe kenal tapi dah bertahun kot tak berbual face to face. paling-paling Ambe cuma dengar cerita je, macam-macam cerita dari parents tentang hal ehwal yang berlaku sekeliling kampung. Baik buruk semua ada. Tapi itu kita tolak tepi. Yang penting, update jugaklah Ambe ni. Takdelah sampai orang kata, belajar tinggi2, duk jauh sampai Kolumpo tapi hal orang kampung lanngsung tak ambil peduli. Kekeee ~

Sulha dan Syuhada.

 Ambe dan Qin.

 Ambe dan Daman.

 Heroes of my life.

 Sister and brother in-law.

Ibu Ambe dengan Syuhada.

Ini lak gambar antara Ambe, Qin, Syuhada and Malina. Gambar main2 je...Maybe seronok sangat kot. Hada say TERBAIK!!!!

Remember when i talk my nice, Syuhada. This is her with her parents, my elder sister, Rini and husband, Bahari. They do look good together right? well, since they're family.

 Bila semua tetamu balik, adalah masa untuk bergambar satu family tapi ayah entah ke mana. So, kami ambil kesempatan untuk ambik gambar sesama kami je dulu....Then, tetiba ayah balik. Maka lengkaplah keluarga kami ni.

Inilah dia gambar kami sekeluarga. Disini kami sekeluarga mengucapkan SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI <3 MAAF ZAQHIR BATIN <3