Hala tuju hidupku

Up until now....i used to have a dream being a teacher-give full commitment in educating next generation towards the better future. From admiration of my kindergarten teacher, i pull all my courage to keep this dream along my life till i met new rival NOVELS.

Novelist- became my second dream in line to the teacher. Maybe i still can educate people through my writing. What kind of writing? Anything...from woman perspectives to the health, culinary, sports, landscape etc...

Through my university days... i met DRAMA either T@J@K Drama. it kind of building up something new in my life. I keep wondering what will happen if i do master in language- especially foreign language except for English. I try to get close to Nihon go and Hanguk e, and surprisingly, i get to know Mandarin. At my final year, i was introduce to France language and get to know several new friends which remain till today. it's wonderful to know other culture and the uniqueness of the language. the same meaning but different spelling and pronunciation. i think i fall in love with the sensation of involving in new environment faster than adapting in social community...why won't i? So, in conclusion... i wish to go out and work in something related to embassy..like being ambassador or something.

dream is a dream.. it won't come true unless we put some effort to it right?

Right now...i'm working as a kindergarten teacher but i believe i don't have the teaching credential and not quite qualified to hold this position. why not? because of my temperament... i'm the one easily got angry even it's with kids... so, i just have to stare at them as a warning and they will shut their mouth eventually..maybe they got scared of me. who knows???

even so, i still hold the intent to take my second degree...it's not like i failed my first degree, and i'm proud with my first degree in Usuluddin and Comparative Religion from IIUM. However, i want to take the second degree and focus of mastering the Japanese language- especially till i can write and read the Hragana, Katakana and Kanji especially... many people do said Kanji is kind of hard to learn but i think i'll do anything to understand and master it.

my convocation on Oct 10, 2011 ~

yunn, sakinah, jannah, waida, me, nuyah and khairina.

but right now, i have another priority...save up enough money so that my family can move from the current home to new location. for a change of air, fresh air...than we can start anew...might be  better for all. 


i'll resign from my current occupation after this month on Nov...it's not that i come to hate this job, actually it's quite amusing for me with no teaching experience and credentials to stay for almost a year...but i need to move on. i want to find another experience working in different places. 

an old saying sounds like; 

"jauh berjalan, luas pemandangan."

whatever the work will be, it's better than be in the front line with the pretender and people with multiple layer of facade...i come to hate it most because it put me in the wrong situation. Well, i come to realize...if i was hated because stand front for my principle, it's not gonna effect me even a bit...in fact, i might not have a time even a bit to think about it.

have you ever experience this kind of situation?

Meeting several man and get dump or dump the guy coz you know he's not the one. then, lost the interest to find the destiny one...choose to stay alone and waiting for the right prince to come for a rescue...

kind of like fairytail huh....like Repunzel. rather than find the way out, she stay put on the tower till the prince come by...sometimes i feel that she already waste her life just for waiting.... Anyway, i think it's normal for any girl to have at least this kind of fantasy dream...me too.

back to the main point, i guess i still can't give hope for what i want in life... even it's late, i still want to learn Nihon go...i want to master it. even it's impossible in the current situation but it will be possible if i keep trying slowly by myself. most successful people start all by themselves not by depending on other people. it wouldn't hurt trying... as a matter of fact, i wanna be a worth sister for my siblings...some1 they can feel proud to be with them...InsyaALLAH.

never stop trying~~~~~conclusion; 

HItori Jyanai..

For all...i mean almost all, should i use the words everyone? Hmm it could be proper to say everyone...Everyone in this world must have dream to have a companion, like a soul mate...which is compatible for the rest of their life. the meaning compatible used to be understand equal in many aspect such as level of education, the level of property..people used to and still think highly of those with money...some also take in consideration about outer appearance. Well it's something common to look after some1 good-looking either man or woman. But sometimes we encounter people who never care bout look, just fall in love with the charm of kindness... however, it's rarely do happen. Well, still...it do happen. Some people fall in love at the first sight...for me it kind of magical thing. Coz i don't have that experience ever in my life. Just puppy love. Unfortunately, he now become a husband to somebody else and i doesn't fell any disappointment or frustration. I just hope in the future, i'll experience it. But if it doesn't lead to a long term relationship, why bother...

Well, I think it just normal for someone heartbroken to wish never fall in love again but what can we do...we just can make a plan but the one carried out the duty to make it happen or not was SOMEONE so POWERFUL...in fact we don't have any capability to defy it...who else...that's our ALMIGHTY ALLAH. 

As for me, i used to think the same... I have experience so many hardship and suffering till i feel that it useless to think that way...but right now, i just believe in HIS blessing and planning. It impossible for HIM to give hardship we never ever have capability to handle because HE's fair to all HIS creature. 

Once, i watch the drama...Japanese Drama. It's all about life and the lead character repeatedly said the same phrase...omae wa hitori jyanai~you're not alone~...And then, i really believe that everyone was created with compatible spouse to complete what was lacking in any ways. 

When i became addicted to Korean Song and Drama, i meet Lee Seung Gi with his song titled 'Will You Marry Me'... i thought, how nice would it be to have someone completely fall in love with me, like over the heels and confess to me. If this kind of situation happened to me, i think i might say YES at that moment without thinking.

This is the English sub of the song; sweet...

Will you marry me

Will you live forever with me

Whilst loving each other

I want to have a child that looks like me,

another one that looks like you,

And live unhurt, for 1000,or 10000 years

To be honest with you

I like you more than you like me

And people say

that's better between man and woman

c/o;

i'll love you more

i'll take care of you

if you cry

if you're having a hard time

if you're hurt, i'll hurt with you

i'll love you forever

i'll protect you forever

i'm thankful that i've met someone like you

i want to love only you everyday

will you marry me

RAP;

Marry me,

there's a feeling of happiness everyday

and i look forward to tomorrow with you

why am i nervous?

you are the best,

no matter how much i look at you

until our black hair becomes white

until our lives end

even if i put waters in your hand

i won't put tears in your eyes

you as my half, i as your half

i'll love you as long as i breathe

When time goes by and we get wrinkles

You and I will be together like now

repeat c/o;

RAP;

You're like the light which lightened up my dark life

the sound of soup boiling that greet me

the rain that falls on my thirsty heart

the poem that contains the meaning of love

the string of destiny that the heaven have allowed

the meeting between you and i was meant to be

you'll be irreplaceable even if i was given the whole world

you'll be the only person in my heart forever

repeat c/o;

So, did you listen to it?? How come anyone refuse a proposal of life if its so sweet like that....the song contain deep meaning of having love someone and being in love with someone. Just to make sure the precious one is smiling, one would do anything...so sweeeet...!!!!!Even though it might be impossible, i think having a dream to have someone confess to me like that wouldn't cause any harm...right?


If it happened to you, i wish you the best and congratulations. Once you found the love of your heart, grab hold onto it despite the obstacle because true love are hard to come by. if it does come, appreciate it with grateful because once you deny it from your heart, you'll be in despair but don't ever stray from the right path, ALLAH's love just because of love to another human being.


In fact, love not only about happiness but the willingness from one heart to accept what lacking. not everyone is perfect but once you fill the the spot, it'll become perfect.


that's my truly opinion. what bout you???

All in 1

Waaaa....Ambe confuse....! Banyak sangat keluaran smartphone yang baru...xtau mana satu yang nak di pilih...waaaa Tasukete kure...


Sekarang Ambe gune Sony Ericson J20i hazel....dgn Nokia 5330....Tapikan macam orang lain, Ambe teringin sangat nak pakai Samsung Galaxy...xkisahlah Samsung Galaxy Tab ke, Samsung Galaxy Note ke...hape ke...yang penting function dia all in 1... asalkan Ambe dapat treat macam laptop- penuh dengan fuction microsof..tp ade ke yg mcm tu? Almaklumlah, Ambe ni jenis yang cetek pemikiran sikit dalam benda2 canggih cm gini...


Pape pun, Ambe akan cuba jugak dapatkan either Samsung Galaxy Tab or HTC or I Phone...Tapi kan ramai yang cakap I Phone ni x best sangat...aii! Macam mana ni?? HTC lak mahal giler...hampir2 RM 1500 and above..Tapi kan semalam abang ipar Ambe ade cakap yang Samsung Galaxy Tab dah boleh dimiliki dengan harga RM1200 je... Unbelievable...Harga dh turun...Of course Ambe happy sakan...tp tgu dlulah...tgu gj bulan ni hehehe pasni boleh lah decide which one the most suitable one with me...i hope i can make wise dicision over this matter coz i wanna use it for a long time...especially for the internet purpose. at least i don't have to drag along a netbook whereverr i go...i doesn't feel quiet right using Sony Ericson to surf internet coz it limited.... i  guess i have to ask someone over the sea bout it....

Wayang oh wayang

Hari ning, Ambe gi tengok wayang...rindu gamoknye....lagipung Ambe dok tahu nok wak gape. Nok bace buku, buku Ambe hok banyok2 tu Ambe ator doh umoh kakok Ambe. boring sangat. Internet? Malah anagt wase nok bukok laptop...handphone? Malah nok cah...Lagipong Ambe nok gi beli cd hehehe...Sekarang ning, Ambe nok cube2 usaha kupul belake citer2 terutame sekali drama Korea dengang Jepong. Bukang gape, Ambe nok wak collection. Manelah tahu, suatu mase ekgi buleh sipang dalang library peribadi Ambe.

Hari ning Ambe pilih tengok citer Tower Heist. Napok macang best je. Tamboh2 lagi Eddie Murphy belakon. Wase nok tengok pulok. Haritu tengok iklang je. ni gambor poster Tower Heist; 

Gandingan mantap pelakon yang menghidupkan jalan cerita.

Tunjang utama Tower Heist.

Komen ; 

Bagi Ambe lah, citer ni best....kelakor giler...awal2 lagi Ambe tergelok. Tapi jangang nok complaint lok...bukang ape, citerase setiak orang tu dok same jadi jangang duk saloh ke sape2 lah...jangang lok kate Ambe ni dok pandai nok nilai cerite...doh Ambe suke citer gini, nok wak gane...kalu dok setuju, dok soh tengok citer ni....Ambe poong nok kongsi dengang orang hok suke je...kalu dok suke, jangang  bace...

Haritu...dok silap Ambe bulan 10, Ambe ade tengok citer The Sorcerer and the White Snake. nok tahu bakpe Ambe ye ye nok tengok? sebab Jet Li belakon hehehe... ni gambo ye...cool;

Gandingan mantap Jet Li sebagai seorang sami yang membanteras kejahatan dari makhluk2 ghaib. Meskipun The White Snake ni asalnya sangat baik tetapi seperti yang kita ketahui dalam islam, hubungan antara manusia dan makhluk alam ghaib adalah di larang sama sekali. Cinta bukan hanya memberi bahagia tetapi turut mengundang derita. Namun begitu, cinta sejati tidak mengenal semua itu. terpulang pada tafsiraan peribadi masing2.

Akan mempertahankan prinsip yang makhluk ghaib hanya akan memberi derita kepada manusia. tetapi sampai bilakah dia akan berpegang teguh apabila bertemu dengan kekuatan cinta White Snake. Kadang2 tu, kita akan mula merubah prinsip apabila menyedari sesuatu...tidak semua makhluk ghaib itu bersifat mengancam.

The White Snake yang begitu tegas dan teguh memppertahankan cinta suci sehingga sanggup melakukan apa sahaja asal dapat bersama dengan insan tercinta. 

2hb 11 baru ni, Ambe tengok cite lakonang Justine Timberlake dalam IN TIME. Best...penuh aksi, debaran..wat kejut sokmo bila duk pk nak sapa hujung nyawe... ni gambor ye;